Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Goodbye, Mississippi!

ISP at the animal shelter

What can I say? Are there even sufficient words in the English language to express how I feel at this, the end of my 10-month AmeriCorps journey?

When I set out for Mississippi last August, I had no idea what the year ahead would hold. What I found were amazing friends, a new view point of our country, and a realization of who I really am and what I want out of life. How can I put those things into words? I suppose I can do naught but try.

As for the friends I’ve made, I speak mainly of my teammates, who have seen me at my best and my most ornery, and who never failed to encourage and love me during our time together. Never before have I felt so much a part of a group--accepted as myself--than I did with these wonderful folks, who I now call family. Is it possible that this time last year I hadn’t met any of them? They feel like my oldest friends in the world, and I’m devastated by the idea that after this week, I’ll never live near them ever again. I’ll miss you so much, River 7!

When I say I’ve developed a new viewpoint of these United States, I guess what I mean is, I now know how much I don’t know. Working so closely with non-profit organizations in multiple states has given me a glimpse into the reality of the selflessness and hope that exists in people. There are so many who do so much, and I’m privileged to have met a few of them during my term of service. If you ever feel yourself getting cynical when it comes to our world, look up some non-profits, talk to the people who run it and volunteer with it, spend some time getting to know them and their mission, and you’ll start to see what I’m talking about.

Don’t just nod your head in agreement when you read this, or chuckle and say, “oh young people and their soon-to-be-crushed-by-the-business-of-living optimism”. Rather, do a Google search on volunteer opportunities in your area, or start conversations with strangers and see what they know. You’ll be surprised by the opportunities you’ll run into, and the awesome people you’ll meet. Even you folks who support organizations financially, that’s awesome, and without your support, non-profits couldn’t exist, but also, spend some of your time volunteering as well. I think to really feel and understand what strength and goodness exist in mankind, you need to be there.

That being said, I really cannot express the change I feel within myself that has occurred over the course of this 10-months. Not only do I want to be better, I have the confidence to actually go out and follow the example that has been set for me by so many outstanding individuals. I’ve heard it said that every experience you have, and every person you meet shapes you in some way, and you’re different because of it. I’m so honored to have had the opportunity to spend so much time being shaped by people who have changed me for the better. I can’t wait to get home and begin the next phase in my life!

For those of you who don’t know, I plan to start a small business doing finish carpentry within the Central KY area. This year I discovered how much I love construction, and I want to use the skills I have learned to tangibly make peoples’ living situations a little brighter. I am so excited to begin this project, and I want to thank you all for the support you’ve given me, not only during this program, but also way before. My family and friends’ belief in my abilities caused me to extend my reach, and I can’t wait to see what life has in store for me just around the corner…

Love you guys,
 k

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Disaster - Day 12

As of today, all casework for this assignment has been officially completed! That means we visited all destroyed and majorly damaged houses over 10 counties. Hurray! My whole team has the day off tomorrow, and then we'll be working in the Chattanooga Red Cross chapter warehouse on Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday we head back to campus for 1 week, and then home!

I was teamed up with Jacquie today out in the field, so that was a great way to end this disaster project. We visited over 30 houses and some sites that no longer held anything other than former house debris. Part of the area we covered was out in the country, and let me tell you, this area of TN is absolutely beautiful. At one point, we drove past a vineyard, and we decided to stop for a few minutes, because it was too beautiful to just speed by and not properly observe and soak it up. Isn't it funny how those odd moments of beauty can undo all your previous stress and worry? I didn't realize how much I needed to let it all go until I stared across those grape vines and studied the green mountains beyond. The sun was shining and bright, but there were billoughous gray clouds in the sky as well, threatening rain. The combination of light and dark was so wonderous, I knew it was a moment that was temporal. One of those times where you wish you could hold onto the moment so you could describe it later (as I'm attempting here, though failing miserably), but you know it's too much to process, so you just soak up the feeling as best you can so that you can at least hold onto that.

This evening, I decided to try an MRE for dinner out of curiosity. My particular "Meal, Ready-To-Eat" was a BBQ veggie burger entrĂ©e with fruit punch, dried cranberries, wheat snack bread, iced tea mix, and a chocolate banana nut muffin. The wheat snack bread was disgusting, but everything else wasn't too bad, and it was fun to chemically heat up my food. Also, the meal came complete with laxative gum, mini Tabasco sauce, wet wipe, salt packet, matches, and toilet paper. The veggie burger kind of tasted like beef jerky, so that was weird. I didn't try the gum or use the toilet paper, so I'm not sure I quite got the full experience, but close enough. I definitely wouldn't want to eat one of these every night, but I can see how it would be a nice thing to have if you didn't have electricity and wanted a hot meal.


Well, I don't think I'll be writing daily any more, since my job is normalizing again, but I'll definitely have another post up next weekend when I'm back in Vicksburg.


I hope you're all well, and I can't wait to see everyone in just a few short weeks.
love,
 k

Friday, May 13, 2011

Disaster - Day 10 & 11

Yesterday blogger was down, and today I got home too late to spend much time on an update. I'm still doing great, and yesterday I got lot of work  accomplished. Today was my first day off since leaving Memphis, and I pretty much just lazed around the hotel room with Ashlyn all day. Then our whole team went over to Shelly's house for dinner (she's the homeschool mom who's volunteering with the Red Cross that I mentioned in a previous post), and we had a grand time of eating home cooked food and enjoying an evening with a really nice family at their really nice farm. Shelly and her husband have 4 kids and they homeschool them all. It was really neat, because I found out that they use Sonlight Curriculum, which is what Scotty and I used, and what Mom still represents and is a consultant for.

Mom: I asked one of the girls if she'd read 'Mara, Daughter of the Nile' and 'The Great and Terrible Quest.' She said they had and that she loves them both. 'Mara' is one of her and her sisters' favorite books that they've read 10 or so times. I told her how Kelly read it to me when I had my wisdom teeth out because it was our favorite too. Such a small world...

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Disaster - Day 9

Can it be day 9 already?? These packed days are flying by, and though my mind has trouble believing I've been working 10 -12 hour stressful days for over a week, my body refuses to let me forget it. I'm sore and sleepy this evening, but it's all for a good cause, and also a means to an end. I'm sure I'll miss it when it's over.

I did a lot of driving today, because my team was assigned to finish the last few houses that hadn't been visited in 2 adjacent counties. We drove back and forth over a mountain several times, and let me tell you, I have seen enough beauty here in TN to last me for a while: so picturesque. I went out with Ashlyn, and an 84-year-old lady named Pauline, who is spunky and hilarious. She volunteers as a mental health worker for the Red Cross, and she is sweet, sassy, and quite a flirt with all the old fellows we ran into.

We went to a Baptist church on the mountain for lunch, and we got to see a lot of neat things that are being done in the community there. The church has tables filled with clothes and food donations that anyone can come by and take if they need it. They also serve 3 hot meals a day for victims of the disaster, as well as volunteers who are working in the area. One of the ERVs from my Red Cross disaster chapter brought the food for lunch today, but often a group of indefatigable church ladies prepare and serve the meals. Patsy, the lady who is running the whole operation, has been working every day all day since the storm occurred two weeks ago, and when I spoke with her, she had a smile on her face and asked me what she could do to help me in the mission I was on.

While we were at the church, a large group of Mennonite men and boys came to eat lunch. As it turns out, they live in the area, and they are going around the mountain with chainsaws, cutting up downed trees in peoples yards and cleaning up the debris. Talk about tireless, these guys have also been working in their button down shirts and suspenders since the storm, starting early, ending late, and taking half an hour for lunch.

I keep meeting remarkable people!!!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Disaster - Day 8

Today was great! Sarah and I visited a lot of houses (and a lot of places where houses used to be) and talked to a lot people, asking them how we could help and listening to their stories. We even got to see some of our AmeriCorps friends who are also working in the area, so that was awesome.

At lunch, a guy walked up to our table when were finished eating and took our bill, saying he wanted to buy our lunch. He said the Red Cross has done a lot for him and for his community, and he insisted on buying our meal.

I am constantly overwhelmed by the generosity and kindness I have seen daily while working in these disaster torn communities: neighbors helping neighbors in any way they can. One guy we talked to was using his farm equipment (bulldozer, tractor, etc.) to help clear away debris at his friend's house, and when he finished on that lot, he continued on to the houses next door, clearing up their debris for free. It got up over 90 degrees today, and I can't tell you how many people were out working and volunteering their time and energy in order to help their friends, family, and neighbors. It was a good thing we had bottled water to hand out!

I'm also learning which insurance companies are worth paying into and which aren't, based on their response time and willingness to foot the whole bill. State Farm and All State are two that I continue to hear praised by homeowners.

Sarah and I had a conversation in the car about how this type of situation really shows you the goodness of mankind. What I witnessed today is my proof that people are inherently good, and anytime I may doubt that in the future, I hope I can remember what I saw and heard here in Cleveland, TN.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Disaster - Day 7

Today, I became a National Red Cross Client Services Supervisor. What did you do? Okay, so maybe it's not as impressive as it sounds since everyone on my team was promoted so that we can be in charge of volunteers, but still, it's quite a title, don't you think?

Jacquie and I went out together to do casework today in Bradley County, which was hit pretty hard in many places. Our job is to go to houses that are destroyed or have major damage (as assessed by the Red Cross) and see if there is anything we can do to help the residents. If the people aren't there, we're supposed to leave a note with Red Cross information, saying that they can call us if they need help with anything. We try to leave this note in a place where they'll see it if they come by, so we tape it to the door if we can, or to a mail box if the house is too dangerous looking to approach. I can't tell you how many lots we bypassed completely because there wasn't enough of a house left to tape anything to. I have never seen such complete and utter destruction. It was really sad.

We talked to a few people that had major damage done to their houses, and they all kept stating how lucky they are, and how it could be worse. I am constantly struck by how upbeat the majority of these folks are who have lost so much. One couple's response when Jacquie and I asked if there was anything we could do for them was to tell us how grateful they are for the work we do, and then they asked us if we'd like some cold water to drink. Their house is so majorly damaged, they were just stopping by to get some things they'll need while staying in a motel, but they asked us how we were doing and tried to help us.

Another thing I want to talk about are the volunteers I've had the pleasure of working with this past week. Shelly, a local homeschool mom, comes in every day to help us with case work, and she is one of the nicest people I've ever met. Mike is a local guy who has showed us the ropes, and is always ready to go out on a new case. Debby is a volunteer from the Knoxville chapter of the Red Cross, who is practical and compassionate, and has acted as a caring mother to our team. Rob and Steve are brothers who both attend a college in Michigan and started driving South after finals when they heard about all of the disaster damage. They wanted to help, but didn't know how, so they just got in the car and then started calling agencies when they approached areas that had been hit by tornadoes. They ended up in a two day training in Knoxville, then were sent to our disaster offices in Chattanooga to help in our Client Services department. Steve, Rob, and Debby all left today as they had things to get back to, and it was difficult saying goodbye. I suppose in this type of stressful, slightly traumatizing environment, you get attached to people pretty quickly. I'm so tired of saying goodbye to people. I think that's been the hardest thing this year: saying goodbye.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Disaster - Day 6

Operation bath tub laundry.
I had such an enjoyable day. Ashlyn and I did our 9 1/2 hour ISP at the Chattanooga Community Kitchen, and it was stress free. Except for being tired, I'm feeling refreshed and ready to start the new week tomorrow. I'm planning on turning in early tonight ie within the next 20 minutes, so that should solve the tired problem.
Ashlyn performing one of three soapy agitation cycles.

Also, I now have clean laundry, though it's still pretty wet...and did I mention it's hanging on a makeshift clothesline all over the hotel room? Ashlyn and I decided to wash our laundry in our bathtub, using powdered detergent. We filled the tub with hot water and the detergent, then threw our clothes in and agitated it thoroughly using an ordinary windshield scraper we found in our cargo truck. We repeated this process 3 times, then rinsed it twice in bulk, then one article at a time, after which we rung each piece out and hung it up on the clothes line with clothespins. We couldn't find a laundry mat, and anyway, we saved some money doing it this way, not to mention that it's been over a week since we've done anything for entertainment, so this was a pretty hilarious way to spend the evening. It was hard work though, and I now appreciate more than ever the simplicity of modern laundry technology.

Other than that, I just have to say, Happy Mother's Day, Mom!
Our clotheslines make door access slightly trying...

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Disaster - Day 5

Superfluous training, paper shuffling, and talking in circles was this morning's theme, but I actually got to go out and do something real this afternoon. Sarah, Ashlyn, and I drove out to a distant case (I got to drive a sweet Ford Escape, because I'm the only one who is 25 and allowed to drive a rental) about an hour and half away from our office. There is a family of six (including an infant) living in a rat infested tool shed beside their trailer, which was destroyed by one of the tornadoes. They don't want to leave, because they are afraid someone will loot their valuable tools, and they were running out of food and water. We took them all kinds of things they might need, including bottled water, MRE's, canned goods, snacks, baby food, diapers, wipes, toiletries, etc. We also opened a Red Cross case on them so that we can refer them to FEMA and set them up with other organizations to get them clothing, food vouchers, and temporary housing assistance. Even though nothing else in my day made any sense, helping that family in such a tangible way made me feel like what we are doing here might be worthwhile.

Tomorrow, Ashlyn and I have one of our two days off, so of course, we're working. We still have ISP hours to acquire, so off we go to the Community Kitchen downtown to prepare, serve, and cleanup a days worth of meals for who knows how many people. I'm really excited about doing this, and we get to sleep an extra hour, so that's nothing to scoff at. We're also going to track down a laundry mat since days off are the only opportunity for us to wash our clothes, and Ashlyn and I are both rapidly running out of clean underwear. *sigh* Hardly a "day off", but at least a different task mixes things up a bit.

If my thoughts seem scattered, it's because I'm beat. Before I go, let me just say that as you go to sleep tonight, realize how lucky you are to be sleeping in a house with a roof, and running water, and electricity, and  without the fear that the rat you heard run past you in the darkness might bite you or your infant. Also, hug the people you love and tell your friends what they mean to you, because the moment you're in is the only one you can depend upon. "No matter what looms ahead, if you can eat today, enjoy the sunlight today, mix good cheer with friends today, enjoy it and bless God for it. Do not look back on happiness -- or dream of it in the future. You are only sure of today; do not let yourself be cheated out of it." (Henry Ward Beecher)


Much love to you all,
 k

Friday, May 6, 2011

Disaster - Day 4

Another long day, but I did get to go out in the field for the first time, so that was neat. I worked on a damage assessment team with two other women for most of the day, so we drove to specific roads in a distant county where there was known damage to assess how bad things looked and to see what sort of help the families might need. Our assigned area was very rural and backwoodsy, so we spent a good portion of the day looking for non existent street signs and making wrong turns.

Back at the office, things are really chaotic as relief management is taking over for the managers who have been working without breaks since the disaster occurred, and the result is that our systems and trainings for things are being turned upside down. Hopefully things will be better tomorrow as the workers and managers begin to understand one another...

I'd like to give a big shout out to Ruth and Cain, who spent their day off helping out at the office and shelter. You guys rock. I'd also like to say that our entire team is doing a fantastic job of remaining positive and getting so much done even without direct instructions. Ashlyn, Sarah, Mac, Jacquie, Taylor, Ruth, and Cain, each and every one of you inspires me to do the best I can, even when I'm tired and frustrated. I love you guys!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Disaster - Day 3

Oh real food, how I've missed you! We got our Red Cross debit cards today to buy food and things we might need while we're here. Being a vegetarian has been a bit of a struggle in that everything available at the disaster office is either meat or snacks. I've been living off of potato chips and cookies for the last couple of days, but now I'm set. Ashlyn, Ruth, and I just walked to Walmart after our 12 hour shift and I bought some real food!

My day consisted mostly of paperwork and answering phones in the office, so not much to tell. Also, I'm pooped and I still need to take a shower and eat dinner, so I'll bid you hello and goodbye all in one breathe, if you don't mind.

Good night,
 k

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Disaster - Day 2

What a day! We got off a little early again, meaning we worked an 11 hour day, but it went by quickly. I was assigned to the office today and tomorrow, but I got to go out in an ERV (Emergency Response Vehicle) over lunch today to help serve 100 sack lunches to people without power. It was one of the coolest things I've ever done in my life.

Larry and I (Larry is an 80 year old volunteer who is hilarious, generous, and now my buddy) drove the lunches to a parking lot in the middle of a long street of houses that still don't have their power back. People came over and we chatted with them and handed out the bags, along with water, to ANY person who needed it, in an ANY quantity they requested. Red Cross does not discriminate in any way shape or form, and the immensity of what this meant really hit me today. This organization's mindset is to take people at their word and help them in any way they can. One lady told us that there are about 7 churches within walking distance of her house, but not one of them had opened their doors to help in the community, or come around to see if people needed food or help or prayers. She said the Red Cross was the only thing she'd seen in the area that had come to help, and she thanked us repeatedly.

From there we drove to a trailer park community that sustained quite a lot of damage, and one resident was actually killed by a tree falling on her trailer. The trailer looked like it had been cut in half by the tree, and there were several more trailers that looked the same way, though fortunately no one else was hurt. Larry drove the truck slowly around the neighborhood while I excited honked the horn to get peoples attention that we were there since there were far too many trailers to go around knocking on people's doors. I wanted to exemplify an ice cream truck by singing a carnival song into the microphone that projects like a megaphone from the truck, but I thought that might be overkill.

I lot of women came over with little children and babies to get lunches, and I've never wanted to be able to speak Spanish more than I did when interacting with them. They were all really happy to get the food, and when I'd ask them how many bags they needed, I gave them twice as many (per Larry's example) so that they'd be sure to have dinner in the evening too. Larry shamelessly pulled a few cookies out of random bags to give to the little kids that shyly held their mothers' hands, claiming they were too cute to not do as much. Hopefully the people who received bags without cookies weren't too upset :)

The one thing I found sad and disconcerting today was the way about 50% of the people who called into the emergency lines Jacquie and I were answering treated us on the phone. The Red Cross is a non-profit organization running mostly on volunteer labor, and they do not receive ANY government assistance. However, I get the feeling that many people think of it as a government agency that they are entitled to tap into as a resource whenever they are inconvenienced. I realize it's a hardship to lose power for a week, but the Red Cross is not obligated to drive a giant box of food to everyones house who lost their perishables when their refrigerator went out.

They make it their priority to first serve the people who are stuck without transportation and who have no means of getting food for themselves (there are people at this moment who are completely out of food and water and have no means of changing their predicament for all sorts of reasons). For people who are able to get out of their houses, there are several emergency shelters set up all over the area that serve food 24/7 and can provide shelter if needed (although many people refuse to permanently leave their houses, even if they have no roof, because they are afraid of looting, which is said to be a completely justified worry here). I've had people yell at me and hang up on me when I've told them we can't drive a box of food to their door to replace their refrigerator contents, and I'm talking about people with cars, canned goods, and already restored power. I must say, this is one aspect I wasn't expecting.

Anyway, I can hardly keep my eyes open, and tomorrow is a new day, so I'll say goodnight.

Love,
 k

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Disaster - Day 1

Up at 6:30am. Hotel breakfast from 7 - 7:15, then into the van and off to the makeshift emergency Red Cross headquarters in a church about 20 minutes away. Meeting from 8 - 8:30 on where we are in terms of handling the "clients" in the surrounding devastated counties (our base is responsible for 10 counties). Brief intro training before jumping into answering incoming calls on 3 designated cell phones. Helped out in the office until 2pm when we began a 3 hour training for the work we'll be doing these next weeks. More volunteers than were anticipated showed up for the training, so that was encouraging. We were able to leave early, though it was still a 10 1/2 hr work day, and we're all pretty pooped.

What we'll be doing is pairing off and going door to door in devastated neighborhoods, asking people if they need assistance. If so, we'll interview them and fill out an information sheet for their household, and then in due time (possibly a couple days, though at this point Chattanooga's priority status has only recently been upgraded to a level 4 disaster, and the funds to handle this increase from a level 2 have not yet come through from the national branch), the Red Cross will make sure they receive money for food, clothing, furniture, etc. We'll also be equipped with water and food as we visit these houses, so if people have immediate basic needs, we'll be somewhat equipped to help them.

The Red Cross here has also set up several shelters throughout various counties, and they are currently in possession of 6 or 7 ERV's, which are constantly out and about delivering food wherever it looks like it might be needed. Taylor went out in one of these today to help distribute food, and he said people were incredibly happy to see them and get something to eat.

Everyday, 2 people from our team will be staying behind in the office to answer phone calls, and most likely to help out with varied tasks in other departments as well. The staff here is stretched extremely thin, and the people that are working are exhausted, having worked 12 - 16 hr days since the tornadoes hit last Wednesday. One gentleman actually collapsed in the office today and an ambulance was called. They initially thought it might be a heart attack, but from what I heard later this afternoon, it was just plain exhaustion. Everyone has been extremely welcoming to our entire team, and they're anxious to receive our help in every department. However, we've specifically been assigned to case management, and our supervisor is guarding us jealously, refusing to let us get into the middle of a tug of war situation and potentially lose some of us to other projects. She's been burned in this way in the past and is not about to repeat that mistake.

Thanks for all your prayers and good thoughts. They are very much appreciated. Tomorrow is the true test since I'll actually be out in the field (unless assigned to phones). I'll try and write at least a little update everyday, though I'm not sure how things will go once we get rolling since life must go on even in a situation such as this. There's still laundry to do, and PT, and food shopping, which must all be worked around an 8am-8pm work schedule. I'm just glad my mattress is comfortable :)

love,
 k

Monday, May 2, 2011

Disaster Response Update

This evening I find myself in a Best Western room in Chattanooga with only one roommate and WiFi. We got called off our project in Memphis yesterday to come work with the Red Cross in this devastated section of TN. We'll be working 12 hours a day, 7 days a week until May 15th. Our briefing is tomorrow morning, but it sounds like half of my team will be working out of the Red Cross staging area where ERV's (Emergency Response Vehicles) are being sent from while the other half does case work "in the field", which means going door to door (if that much of the house is still standing) and helping people get signed up for Red Cross benefits ie meals, shelter, etc. The death toll is pretty high here, and we've been told to prepare ourselves to speak with families who may have lost loved ones in the tornadoes, not to mention their homes and possessions.

I'm really glad we're here and that I'll get the opportunity to really help people who need it, but I'm also kind of terrified. Can I do this?

I don't think I wrote about this at the time, but when I was stationed in New Orleans, I was standing outside a house we were drywalling one morning, waiting for our site supervisor to bring the key to let us in. As I was pacing the yard anxious to start work, I heard the sickening sound of car crashing into a pole just two or three houses down. Two cars were actually involved, and a passenger from each care (both young women) were badly hurt. One had been seated in the back seat, and upon impact, the back window shattered and the woman literally bounced out of the car through the window and her body was hurled against the side of a brick house. The other woman, a teenage girl actually, had been tossed around the car like a ball in a pin ball machine, and was in a lot of pain.

Greg, one of the guys from our work site, immediately dashed over to the wrecked cars and took charge, checking to make sure the cars weren't going to explode and getting everyone away to a safe distance. He helped get the pinball girl out of the car without moving her around too much and laid her in the front yard, then he went to tend to the woman who had hit the house who we thought at first might be dead. Running over to see what I could do to help, I saw that the girl laying in the yard was alone in the chaos. When I knelt down next to her, she was shaking all over from shock, and crying from pain and fear. I didn't know what to do. Greg yelled to me to keep her neck still as it seemed very possible she had sustained neck injuries. I told the girl to stay still and I asked her her name. Through her tears she told me, though I can't remember it now. I stared at her and she stared at me, and all I could do was tell her over and over again that everything was going to be fine. I was scared. Her shaking was getting worse and all I had to offer her was the dirty hoodie I was wearing, embedded with layers of drywall dust. I covered her and told her the ambulance would be there soon and that everything would be okay. She kept crying, and I couldn't stop a few tears from falling down my own cheeks too, though I tried my best to keep them in check to show the girl that there was nothing to worry about.

Eventually the ambulance came and packed up the two girls. I have no idea what became of them.

I felt so many things in that half hour or so of sitting with that girl, holding her hand and wishing I had something clean to cover her with and keep her warm. Terror filled me, along with sadness, anxiety, anger, frustration, and a hundred other emotions all jumbled together. Is that what this will be like? How can you listen to someone's story who has lost everything and not fall to pieces? How can you be the strong one who looks them in the eye and says everything will be okay if you can't stop your own tears from falling?

Lord, give me strength!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Week 35 & 36

Fun at the "Down to Earth" festival.

To which should we yield: tornadoes or floods? When the siren goes off (which has become routine) we flee to the basement, but with all this water, I wonder if drowning shouldn’t be our bigger worry. Having power is now a luxury here in Memphis, and I’m learning to live every moment as if the next will find me cold and in the dark, eating pretzels for dinner. We were informed earlier this week that we’re on alert for going on a disaster project somewhere in Mississippi, and we should be ready to leave on a moment’s notice. As of this afternoon, they told us there’s a pretty good chance we’ll be leaving tomorrow. I’m kind of nervous about the work we’ll be doing, but I’m also excited for the opportunity to help fulfill people’s immediate needs in such a chaotic situation. Please pray for my team and for the people we’ll be trying to help. So many have lost so much these past few weeks.


I'll forgo the usual work and life updates as I'm preoccupied with all this emergency stuff. 
I love you guys,
 k

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Week 34

Lotsa matza

What day is it? For that matter, what month is it? Our schedule for this new project is all over the place, and it’s really starting to throw off my internal clock. I honestly had to check my watch twice the other day to find out if it was April or May.

I found myself back in my old life one day this week in that I was working in an office. Jacquie and I designed an information brochure for Wolf River Conservancy as well as a newsletter for a fundraising event that we’ll be helping prepare for, and carry out on April 30th. We spent a good portion of one of our days off working on this too, but we figured it was for a good cause, and we don’t have much to do on days off anyhow. Both the brochure and the newsletter came out fantastically, and the ladies we’re working for were very pleased, so that was rewarding.
Working out in Lovett Woods.

A couple of days ago I worked with a few of my team members to clear a new trail through the woods, and I now have a much higher appreciation for the hard work that goes into that process. I felt like Daniel Boone out there, but instead of a machete, I carried only a pair of loppers. The privet problem here is really becoming real to me, and I now have a personal vendetta against the stuff. It’s EVERYWHERE, and so thick it’s difficult to even know where to start cutting, its branches sticking out all over the place. For shrubs that are still relatively small, I’ve found they can be pulled out by the roots, which is the most satisfying way to deal with it if you ask me. We came across a cotton mouth snake while forging this new trail, but to be honest, I was more annoyed than scared. I guess I’m getting used to them. We gave the thing time to slither away, and then resumed our work.

Post basketball game.
Yesterday we worked the Down to Earth festival at Shelby Farms Park, which is the biggest city park in the country. Real live buffalo are the first thing you see when you drive through the park’s entrance, which is pretty surreal. There’s a beautiful pond with islands of trees and preserve space threading throughout. A paved walking trail goes around the entire thing, and there are branches off of it on one side that lead to dirt pathways through the woods. The park has a frisbee golf course, multiple playgrounds, off road bike paths, and a huge nature preserve with trails through it. The festival, which celebrates Earth Day if you hadn’t guessed, was a lot of fun. Our group helped lead the scheduled nature tours. I got a lot of walking in and learned a lot about animal tracks, tree types, and the kinds of animals and critters that live the woods at Shelby Farms. What I wouldn’t give to have a place like that in Lexington…

The weather has been so cool and clear here in the evenings, we’ve made several camp fires, despite the cruel mosquito population. The best advice I can give you if you ever visit this area: bring lots of bug spray! Cain and I have been busting out our stringed instruments and having a great time playing them by the fire. What a great time of year!

One more thing to mention is our outing to the Memphis Roller Derby on Saturday night! I’ve never seen anything like it, and now all the girls on my team (including me) want to join a roller derby team. We watched Whip It last night, so I guess you could say we’re a bit obsessed with this sport at the moment. If you’ve never been to an event, buy a ticket right away, because it’s incredibly entertaining. Oh, and Sarah and I took the opportunity to drink beer, which was a big event in and of itself. We barely go out these days, so having a Blue Moon in hand was more than a little luxurious J
The Evely girls (well, most of us) at Trish's wedding.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Week 33

Drip, drip, drip. A trail of sweat makes its way down my nose and falls onto my ankle as if guided by the beat of the drum being thumped beside me. The heat encompassing my body becomes almost too much to endure, but the sweat seeping steadily from my every orifice is the offering I make for my prayers, and I slowly begin to feel a connection with everyone in the lodge with me, and with God himself.

On Friday night, some of my teammates and I attended a traditional Lakota ceremony (with some traditions from other tribes incorporated as well, Nakota being a strong influence) to pray for healing for another teammate’s step-sister, who is in a coma and not expected to recover. The ceremony takes place in a sweat lodge and there are four main sessions. Each session gets progressively more intense, and most of us newcomers had to leave at one point or another. It was one of the neatest worship services I’ve ever been to, and the leader was really amazing and explained all of the traditions as he went along. The thing that I truly love about the Native American traditions I encountered is that you can participate in them no matter what your religious principles, as long as you have an open mind and are respectful of everyone’s beliefs. If only every church operated under that mindset…

We finished our first week of work here in Memphis, TN, and I just have to say that I’m really excited about this project. We are working with two different organizations: The Wolf River Conservancy and Arkwings. To get a grasp on what all these organization do within the Memphis community, I sat through two days of orientations, and to relay all of the information I absorbed would take a very long time. Therefore, I’m including the links to their websites so that you can see for yourself all of the great things they do here. (http://www.wolfriver.org/ & http://arkwings.com/) Yet again, the sponsors and supervisors we’ll be working with are incredible people with amazing stories to tell. I have so many role models now; I hope that I’ll be able to live up to their examples for the rest of my life.

This week we had our orientations and then went out to see the finished part of the Memphis Greenway, which is a project of Wolf River. Upon completion, this walking/running/biking trail will be over 30 miles long, running along the Wolf River through the poorest parts of the city to the richest neighborhoods. The Greenway will in a sense be breaking class barriers and help the people of Memphis connect with their community: both its people and environment. We also worked one day to help clear a wooded area of an invasive shrub called privet, which grows rapidly and chokes out native plants, much like kudzu.

Yesterday we made repairs to a broken down horse fence in front of Arkwings, which is the same property we live on. Later in the day we visited the community center in Frasier and met the director, who I’ve only met once but could probably write a book about. He grew up in the projects, worked hard in school from a young age, became a lawyer, and eventually realized that his calling was working with kids who are growing up like he did. Yet another wonder in this ever surprising country of ours. Never look at a problem area and assume it’s a lost cause, because I’ve discovered that there are ALWAYS incredible people putting their mind, body, and soul into making improvements to the places they love, no matter how lost the cause may seem.

Upon returning from the community center, we AmeriFolks met up with some middle and high school students at Arkwings and paired up with them. The idea was to get to know a kid one on one, and then we took them to a part of the Wolf River to explore. Later we played volleyball with some of the younger kids. We hit some snags in the plan, and I’m not sure you could call it a success, but it definitely wasn’t a failure either.

Oh, the other thought dominating issue from this week was the budget crisis going on. A constant threat, we spent the week knowing that if the government shut down, we would be sent back to campus, still fed, but unable to use our government vehicles except for food shopping. We were all sick thinking about leaving our new sponsors, who have already been so kind to us and are excited to have our help with all kinds of projects they’ve prepared. You can imagine our relief when we found out late Friday that we wouldn’t have to pack up and move back to Vicksburg, in order to sit around and do absolutely nothing. Hopefully the extension will provide enough time to figure this thing out so that this looming threat won’t continue to make us anxious.

Love,
 

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Week 31

Ashlyn & I both fear birds, so we're getting our revenge.

Well, the ISP at the women’s shelter went really well and ended up being a lot more than just building a wheelchair ramp, although that was one of the things we did. We also cleaned out an old shed that had a bunch of stored items that had been in there for far too long. Three rat bodies were identified amid the piles of turds, urinated on furniture and boxes, and gnawed through clothing and sheets. It was quite disgusting, which means, it was a job that really needed to be done, so despite the ick factor, it really was a productive and rewarding ISP. Oddly, I found an almost dead mouse on our kitchen floor when I went to make breakfast before leaving for the project, which I had to take outside and release to its fate. We knew there were rats and things living in our walls, but hadn’t seen one yet. As in literature, sometimes in life we receive foreshadowings, and that mouse was the beginning of a day filled with carrying dead rodents to and fro.
Safety first.

This week consisted of more sheetrocking, but I also got to spend one day helping a community lady (in her 80’s or so) move from her now condemned house to an apartment. The city gave her a matter of days to move all of her things before bringing in the bulldozer. In the end it’ll be good, because the organization I’m working with is going to build her a new house, paid for by the city. It was a fun day, getting to know the lady and helping her pack up, but I know she was sad to leave the house where she’d lived with her husband (recently deceased) for the past 20 years.

Since this was our last week of work in Hattiesburg, R3SM threw us a BBQ (including a vegetarian selection), and had a little ceremony of appreciation for us, which was really nice. We also went to a crawfish boil this week, thrown by the groundskeeper of the place we’ve been living; such a neat Southern experience.

On Saturday, we worked at a festival called Hubfest for an ISP. I came home with a slight sunburn and over 9 ISP hours. It was a long day of working in a carnival type atmosphere designated the children’s area, but I had fun. I oversaw the bean bag toss for half of the time, and a bounce house the other half. Now I’m back on campus in Vicksburg and will be leaving for Memphis a week from today.

This whole experience has been such a whorlwind, and I’ve been thinking a lot about all the people I’ve met along the way and will most likely never see again. In John Steinbeck’s Travel’s with Charlie, I just came across a passage that reflected exactly I feel. He says that there are people you meet when you’re traveling who are meant to be temporal in your life. The thing that makes that type of relationship worthwhile is that it is a short human connection, in which you tell your story, hear theirs, and then you move on to what’s next. Those people aren’t meant to be kept in touch with, but they leave a part of themselves with you, and so you’re more attuned to all of humankind. Each individual is so unique, you should make the most of the time you have with them, but when it’s time to say goodbye forever, you can both walk away with a smile, because you’ll always have the memory of your interactions with them.

Even when Mac's in the trash, we still
love repping the 'A'

Tomorrow I’m going to a job fair in Memphis for the day (4 hour drive each way), not because I want to get a permanent job in Memphis, but because I like job fairs and it’ll be a fun trip. We were given the option of going to that or staying back in Vicksburg and working at a local cemetery that we worked at before. Then Thursday I’m driving home for couple of days to attend one of my best friend’s weddings, so I’m really looking forward to that. It’ll be a short visit, because I need to back on campus for work on Monday, but I’ll get to see some friends and hang out with my rapidly growing nieces. Ellie will be 1 next month! I can hardly believe it.

Love you guys,
  k
Us girls at our last day cookout in Hattiesburg.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Week 30

Putting up some sheetrock.

Not much to report. I did a great deal of sheetrocking and mudding this week, which was fun and also good experience. Ask anyone in the business and they’ll tell you that mudding is an art form that takes lots of practice to do correctly, so I’m anxious to get as much experience as I can in this program. So far, so good.

Yesterday we left work early to go to a house dedication on one of the places that our sponsor organization built for a family of 3. It was the first time I’d seen what kind of houses R3SM builds, because thus far, our work hasn’t strayed from the big volunteer house. It was a very nice little house, and the family was really excited to move in. The family, a mother with 15-year-old twins, has been living in a broken down place for some time, and I’m not sure it wasn’t meant as a garage rather than a dwelling. The new house was built right next door, so they don’t even have to move their garden growing out back.

Earlier in the week I set up an ISP (Independent Service Project) with Hattiesburg Parks and Recreation for today, so I spent the morning painting concrete bleachers next to a ball field used for the rec league. It’s a beautiful day, so it wasn’t much of a chore. I set up another ISP for tomorrow at a women’s shelter, where we’ll be helping to build a wheel chair ramp. No days off this week, but I don’t mind. It gives me something to do.

I’ve gotten back into the habit of running most evenings, which I had kind of fallen out of when we were in New Orleans and I wasn’t able to go out by myself. The place where I’m staying now has a little gravel path that snakes around the property filled with ponds that reflect the moonlight quite nicely, so I’m careful to wait until the sun has almost set to begin my exercise. It feels good to have that time to myself again, not to mention that the weather has been absolutely gorgeous and in the 80’s here, so I try to spend as much time outdoors as possible. To cool down, I lay beside one of ponds and stare at the Mississippi stars. I know it sounds too good to be true, but this really is my life. I often lay there and ask myself, “How did I get here.”


Sunday, March 13, 2011

Berger Cookies


Berger Cookies
Makes 16 to 24 large cookies
For the cookies
8 ounces (2 sticks) unsalted butter, at room temperature
1 1/2 teaspoons salt
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 tablespoon baking powder
1 1/2 cups sugar
3 large eggs
4 1/2 cups flour
1 cup whole or 2-percent milk
For the frosting
3 1/2 cups (21 ounces) semisweet chocolate chips
4 ounces unsweetened chocolate, coarsely chopped
2 tablespoons light corn syrup
4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) chilled unsalted butter
1 1/2 cups heavy cream
For the cookies: Preheat the oven to 400 degrees. Line 2 baking sheets with parchment paper.
Place the butter in the bowl of a stand mixer or hand-held electric mixer. Beat on medium-high speed for about 3 minutes, until fluffy. Stop and scrape the bowl down once, or as needed.
Add the salt, vanilla extract and baking powder; beat on medium speed to incorporate, then add the sugar and beat to incorporate. Add the eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition.
Reduce the speed to low (or do the following step by hand); add the flour to the bowl alternately with the milk, beginning and ending with the flour.
Use an ice cream scoop to drop 6 mounds of dough on each baking sheet, spacing the mounds at least 2 inches apart. If you use a standard ice cream scoop, the yield will be 16 cookies. For a yield of 24 cookies, use a slightly smaller scoop, usually sold for the purpose of scooping muffins and dough.
Bake one sheet at a time for 11 minutes, or until the cookies are puffed and there is just barely a golden edge showing from the bottom, but not colored on top. (These cookies are meant to be soft and caky, so don't overbake them.) Cool on the baking sheet for 5 minutes, then transfer to a wire rack to cool completely. Repeat to use all the dough.
To make the frosting: Combine the chocolate chips, unsweetened chocolate, corn syrup, butter and cream into a large microwave-safe bowl. Heat the mixture on HIGH for 1 1/2 minutes, then stir to combine. Return the bowl to the microwave; microwave on HIGH for 1 1/2 minutes, or until the mixture can be whisked together so it is smooth. Do not overheat the mixture or it may scorch. Let cool to room temperature; this may take a few hours.
When the chocolate mixture has cooled, transfer it to the bowl of a stand mixer or use a hand-held electric mixer to beat it on low speed for 1 minute, or until the color lightens and thickens a little to form a frosting. (If you prefer a thinner coat, skip this step of whipping air into the frosting.)
Spread the top of each cookie with a generous 3 tablespoons of the frosting (about 1 1/2 ounces), leaving a margin around the edges. If you are making these in cool weather, the frosting will be firm enough to set almost immediately. In warmer weather, you may need to allow the cookies to set for about 20 minutes before storing. 
Store in a single layer in an airtight tin for 2 days, or wrap them in plastic wrap for up to 1 week.
Per cookie (based on 24, using whole milk): 438 calories, 5 g protein, 50 g carbohydrates, 26 g fat, 17 g saturated fat, 74 mg cholesterol, 204 mg sodium, 2 g dietary fiber, 28 g sugar

Southwestern Black Bean Burgers


Southwestern Black Bean Burgers
(4 Servings) These are incredibly delicious!

Burgers:
1 can black beans, rinsed & drained
2 T Light Mayonnaise
¼ C packed fresh cilantro leaves, chopped
½ C bread crumbs, plain & dried
½ t ground cumin
½ t hot pepper sauce

Fixin’s:
Whole wheat pitas
Lettuce
Salsa
Anything else you might enjoy

Mash black beans with mayo until almost smooth with some lumps. Stir in cilantro, bread crumbs, cumin, and pepper sauce until combined. With lightly floured hands, shape bean mixture into 3” patties. Spray both sides of patty with non-stick cooking spray and fry in a hot skillet for about 3 minutes on each side, or until lightly browned.

Place on pita and top with your favorite fixin’s for a delicious meal. You can make more than you can eat and then freeze the leftover bean mixture to cook at a later date. Just form the patties, and when you’re ready to eat, defrost for 10 minutes and cook through for about 12 minutes, turning once.
Jacquie with our finished product.

Week 29

Jacquie & I cracking up over the Bean Burger process.

Sometimes, I think I can almost hear my biceps growing. Drywall is HEAVY, and I spent a lot of time this past week carrying 4 ½’ x 12’ sheets (2 together) from one location to another. The weight of dual drywall sheets at these measurements is somewhere in the neighborhood of 175 lbs, not to mention the awkwardness of carrying floppy cement that is easily damageable. As a rule, the “big strong men” carry these boards in pairs, struggling every step of the way, and taking a plethora of breathers and breaks. We girls on the other hand have a system. We work steadily with 3 of us carrying the same load, and though heavy, it’s not TOO heavy, and we end up carrying more than the macho guys this way. Our supervisor was quite impressed.

Besides carrying drywall from the front yard into various rooms throughout the house (all first floor, thankfully!), we started the process of putting it up, which isn’t easy in a place with so many little rooms. It’s fun work though, and no ceilings this time since all of the overhead stuff is a combination of former ceiling wood, now cleaned up and put through a planner (some of which I helped with), and drop ceilings that will be installed after the drywall is up.

With so much drywall hanging on the interior frame from our efforts over the past couple of days, the inside of the house looks incredibly different now than it did at the beginning of the week. It really is a wonder to me that a place can go from being a mess of 2x4s strung together to a real room in one simple step. Add a floor and some paint and you’ve got yourself a homey place to live.

As Project Outreach Liaisons’, Ashlyn and I have been putting together our event for this round, which is a food drive for The Salvation Army Food Pantry and Shelter. Their store of canned goods becomes depleted after the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays, so we’re trying to get them back on track early in the year. We’ve been making a lot of phone calls to try and get local churches and organizations involved, which isn’t easy when you’re working on a construction site. Besides having a hard time finding a spot around the place that is quiet enough to make calls, it’s inevitable that the call back you’ve been waiting for will come when you’re standing on a ladder holding a piece of sheetrock. I’m not really sure whose idea it was to create this type of specialty role, but it’s really not conducive to the type of work we do for our day job.
Crazed with the anticipation over Berger cookies.

I did an ISP with The Salvation Army yesterday, and I’ve now completed 74 of my necessary 80 hours. Hurray, almost done!

On the home front, I caught a good sized catfish, which was a nice change from the bluegills I usually come out with. Almost unbelievably, I caught I the SAME little bluegill 3 times. I know he was the same, because each time I pulled him out, I noted the former holes in his lip exactly where I had just pulled hooks from minutes before. Dumbest. Fish. Ever.

One night this week, everyone on the team went to Target except for Mac and I. Feeling we must take advantage of our mastery of the house, we built an amazing pillow, sheet, cot mattress, table, and chair fort. We put couch cushions on the floor inside and made the whole thing big enough for two adults to lie in, which is no small task. We then drank hot cocoa and watched Harry Potter on Mac’s computer inside, and that’s where the rest of the crew found us when they came home. Immature? I prefer the term, child at heart.

Jacquie and I declared this weekend “Martin Beurger Weekend” for very specific reasons. You see, we both love Steve Martin, and Jacquie recently bought some movies starring our star that we’ve never seen before, which we’ve been meaning to watch. That’s the “Martin” part. “Beurger” derives from our desire to try out the Southwestern Black Bean Burger recipe in my new vegetarian cookbook, as well as the Berger cookie recipe that Jacquie’s Aunt Lauren emailed to us. These cookies are a Maryland tradition, and I tried them for the first time when I went with Jacquie to visit her family. They are the most decadent cookies I have every encountered, and I’m not ashamed to admit that sometimes when I’m looking off into the distance with vacant eyes, my mind is on “the cookie that ate Baltimore.”

I am happy to announce that day one of “Martin Beurger Weekend” was a success. We watched The Three Amigos on my computer while we cooked, and then after we’d stuffed ourselves full of our food concoctions, we watch The Man With Two Brains. I can’t remember what’s on the movie watching schedule for today, but I know we’re going to try and squeeze two Steve Martin movies in while eating our leftover Burgers and Bergers. You say weird, I say AmeriFun.

Finally, I am happy to announce that we’ve received the assignment for our last project, and we’re going to be working in Memphis, TN! More details to come, but it sounds like it’s going to be mostly construction and gardening. What could be better?!?!

 much love,
   k

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Red Bean Casserole w/Coconut & Cashews


I made a triple batch of this meat free recipe for dinner this week, and it was absolutely amazing! Good as leftovers too.

For 4 servings:

3T peanut oil
2 onions, chopped
2 carrots, thinly sliced
3 garlic cloves, crushed
1 red pepper, chopped
2 bay leaves
1T paprika
3T tomato paste
14 oz canned coconut milk
7 oz canned chopped tomatoes
1/2C vegetable stock
13 oz canned red kidney beans, rinsed & drained
1/2C unsalted cashews (optional)
Small handful of cilantro, roughly chopped
Salt & pepper

Heat the oil in a large saucepan and fry the onions and carrots for 3 minutes. Add garlic, red pepper, and bay leaves and fry until vegetables are soft and brown.

Stir in paprika, tomato paste, coconut milk, tomatoes, stock, and beans and bring to a boil. Reduce heat and simmer uncovered for 12 minutes, or until everything is tender.

Stir in cashews, cilantro, and salt & pepper and heat through for 2 minutes.

Serve with rice.

Week 28

Looking out the side door on a beautiful morning
with fog over the water.

Insulation blues
Itchiness reigns all over
Even under skin

Sometimes a haiku can say it all, but this one does not even begin to describe how hellishly itchy and generally miserable it is to install hundreds of feet of insulation over the course of a couple days. And it’s not just walls either, it’s the ceilings as well; tall, frustrating ceilings. Someone’s got to do it though, and hopefully we can finish it up this coming week and then forget how awful it was.

Before beginning insulation, I spent three days de-nailing studs, putting up new siding, pulling out old windows, reframing said windows, and installing brand new ones. The house we’re working on is apparently an old whorehouse, situated directly across from the still functioning train station. It’s a gigantic two story house that everyone in town simply refers to as “the big blue house.” Anytime we’re out and about in uniform, people constantly come up to us to ask us what we’re working on, and to give us their enthusiastic thanks for our dedication. Of all the places we’ve been so far, I’d say Hattiesburg is the friendliest.

There’s a woman I worked with this week who is a contract archeologist who has been doing a lot of work in Alaska. Wanting to relax and get out of the cold for the winter, she’s been in Hattiesburg since November (her family lives here). She started to get a little stir crazy not having a regular job, and one day when she was out and about, she noticed that “the big blue house” was being restored. Walking up to inspect the work that was being done, she found Darryl, the man in charge who works on the place alone when there are no volunteer or AmeriCorp groups. Anyway, she told him she’d never worked construction, but she’s got time to spare and is not afraid to get her hands dirty. She been showing up to help on the house a few days a week ever since. This town has such a neat sense of community.
Yes, I always smile this big when using a
nail gun.

Oh, and the organization we’re working with right now is called R3SM. Check them out if you get a chance. They’re pretty cool and do great things here in Hattiesburg.

My favorite part of every work day is lunch time, not just because I’m hungry and am ready to devour the contents of my self-packed meal, which is true too, but also because my entire team spends the hour sitting on the second story roof, eating, napping, tanning, and waving at the passersby below. With our boots unstrung and our sleeves rolled up to our shoulders, people are constantly honking good naturedly at us and giving us broad smiles, making us feel so wanted and welcome, we don’t mind when it’s time to get back to work for the afternoon.

With all the strenuous activity we’ve been engaged in throughout the workday, everyone is utterly drained at the end of the day, and I don’t think anyway has been staying up past 10 o’clock as a general rule. When I get too much sleep, I don’t function very well, so I’ve been setting my alarm for 6am and then trying to keep myself awake until 10pm. Let me tell you, staying up that late is a struggle. I read for hours in the evenings and by the time 9:30 rolls around, my eyes have to fight to reopen after an ordinary blink. I usually end up giving in at about 9:45, and then I inevitably wake up at 5 or 5:30 and lay in bed thinking things out before the day officially begins.

Our kitchen did not come complete with a traditional coffee pot, but we did receive a camp percolator in our “spike kit”, which is what campus gives a team when they live in a place with no dishes or cookware, consisting mostly of things you’d use when cooking on a Colman stove or over an open fire. Anyway, I’ve never used a percolator before, but I remember Dad using one when we’d go camping in the Rockies. Through trial and error, I’ve concocted a formula for a pretty delicious beverage, though I’m still not sure if I’m doing it correctly. Also, it brings back some bad memories, as Scotty got severely burned as a toddler when he pulled a pot like this onto himself during a camping trip. The pot was filled with freshly boiled water, and there was a span of time when we weren’t sure if Scotty would ever have the use of one of his arms. Sometimes I get a nauseous feeling in the pit of my stomach when I’m using this pot, but I suppose you can’t let bad memories dictate how you live, so I try not to think about it.

I’ve also started eating white rice with brown sugar for breakfast, because it keeps me full until lunch time; a difficult feat when working hard and sweating a lot. I never cared much for oatmeal due to the texture, but rice is nice (though it’s just a grain ;). I recommend this if you’re one of those people who eats breakfast and then is starving an hour or two before lunchtime.

A trend for this week has been fishing. The ponds in front of our little cottage are stocked with blue gill, crappie, and catfish (there may be others, but this is what we’ve caught so far), and John and Cain both bought cheap poles at Walmart to fish with. We’ve had a lot of fun seeing what we can catch, and the boys have gotten up really early a couple of mornings to go out and fish before work.

John had never been fresh water fishing before, and wanting to have “the full experience”, he decided to keep 2 of the fish he caught (both tiny blue gills) so that he could cook them up and eat them. First of all, he couldn’t find a bucket to put them in upon reeling them out of the pond, so he used our one big cooking pot (I washed this several times before cooking with it). He caught them in the morning, so to preserve them for when he had time to gut them, he froze them. How can I relay the events of that morning in mere words? I feel I’m not equipped to explain the ridiculousness of the event, but I’ll try.

As I nonchalantly walked into the kitchen to refill my coffee cup, the word on the street was something involving fish, freezers, and injustice. Wanting to understand the buzz, I opened the freezer, and there, lying beside the ice cube box were two fish, sealed individually in zip lock sandwich bags. To get a closer look, I pulled the bags from the freezer, one in each hand, and stared into the eyes of the scaly beings. Assuming them dead as any person would assume an animal in the freezer, you can imagine my surprise when the creatures began to flop inside the bags I still held in my hands as if I had just pulled them from the pond myself. I screamed and jumped into the air, never breaking my eye contact with what I now realized were eyes staring back at me.

Apparently, John had put them in the freezer alive, thinking that freezing them was as a good a way as any to kill them. I suppose that’s where the buzz on injustice originated. Did I mention I’m a new vegetarian because of my convictions concerning the inhumanness of animal treatment within the factory farming industry? I handed the flip-flopping baggies to John and told him he had to kill the fish before freezing them, so he took them outside and rocked over their heads with the rocking chair on our porch. When do boys stop being boys?
I caught the first fish, so a picture was
in order, even if the fish was minuscule.

This week I did my laundry at a laundry mat for the first time in my life. It was pretty uneventful, but it will definitely keep me from taking the luxury of doing laundry in my house for granted. There’s a big difference between throwing a load in and walking away to proceed with your regular activities, and sitting around in a smelly room for an hour and half when you’re bone tired.

You Hotwork folks (George Kopser especially) might be interested to know that the insulation I was putting up this week was manufactured by Owens Corning. Once a name on a file folder in an air conditioned office, now a name on insulation roles in a structure consisting of studs and broken siding. There was a time not so long ago when glass, to me, meant a beautiful picture on the Hotwork lobby wall of bright colored lava, pouring from a factory building. Now, it means tiny dust particles in my lungs, hair, eyeballs, and I swear, even underneath my skin. How the tables of my life have turned!

Love,
 k